Thanksgiving Day 2013

I can’t believe that Thanksgiving is just in two days. Its been a year since you left mom. It has been a tough year too. Last year I was in bed on Thanksgiving with the flu, I cried so hard that day honestly I don’t think anyone would have wanted to be with me. It was just Noelle and me. I made my husband and son go eat with the family. This year, a little different. We first of all have a new member of the family. My 3 month old nephew PJ. He is the sweetest little baby. He is always happy, hardly cries, and very patient. We may also have my uncle over. We haven’t been together for a very long time on a holiday. Today and tomorrow we have a huge snowstorm and my sister told me, that is another first for us. We don’t remember having this much snow on Thanksgiving.. My son is so excited for it to come. I just want to tell him, who cares, it’s no big deal, but it is to him. I can’t take that away from him. Hope you all have a safe and happy holiday. May God bless you all today and everyday.


I am watching my nephew tonight, my son and I. We are at the house I grew up in. Walking in this house it’s like life stood still.picking things up that you know my mom and grandmother touched.Looking aro und at a mirror that was my grandmothers, my moms cups, plates,etc.I miss mom and grandmother very much now is the time for the kids to make memoris, have fun and remember to have fun as long as they can.

My Angel in Heaven

On September 23rd (tomorrow) it will be the 1 year mark that my mom went to her permanent home. This time she didn’t have to make a list of things she will need, no luggage, bathing suits, only her spirit or soul will have left. But unlike taking a vacation, you don’t come back here. You are into a far away realm where there is no pain, sorrow, nothing but love,Joy, understanding, etc.. So when you left you became like an angel you could see well, hear well. You were in the arms of our Lord Jesus and he gave you a new job and a new journey. So mama, enjoy the beauty, peace and meeting our Lord in person. I will see you soon mom, in the mean time do your job and when  it’s my time meet me at the gate.


Your loving daughter,


New Life

Good morning, got our son off to school today. He is going into 2nd grade. Now I have some time to myself. I thougth I would write about something that has come up in my life. I have been asked to help with a grief group in a family christian counseling center. I am so blessed to know that they see me as a good role model to other who have lost loved ones. I have been going thru my grief journey for awhile now, and its time to move on to other things now I can continue to let it keep me down and sad or I can choose to be happy again. My mom and grandmother would not want me to be sad all the time, they would want me to be happy and live life to the fullest. I can hear my grandmother saying Baby girl you have a beautiful son and husband and they need you. Thank you God for my dreams, ambitions, and most of all your love and patience with me. God bless you all. ~Joy~

Little Miracles

Today it was 11 months since my mom went to heaven. Instead of being a sad day it was a happy day. I got to babysit my new nephew, niece and son today. I am so grateful that we got a miracle, right when we will need it most. I think life will be a little happier and holidays alittle more fun with another child in the family.  Though we lost two wonderful people whom will never be replaced, we know that someday we will be back to together as a big family.

Thank you God for miracles,  Beauty after the ashes. Image


A beautiful true love story

i really like this. shows true love

Morning Story and Dilbert

Kleenex Alert

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One day, a young guy and a young girl fell in love.

But the guy came from a poor family. The girl’s parents weren’t too happy.

So the young man decided not only to court the girl but to court her parents as well. In time, the parents saw that he was a good man and was worthy of their daughter’s hand.

But there was another problem: The man was a soldier. Soon, war broke out and he was being sent overseas for a year. The week before he left, the man knelt on his knee and asked his lady love, “Will you marry me?” She wiped a tear, said yes, and they were engaged. They agreed that when he got back in one year, they would get married.

But tragedy struck. A few days after he left, the girl had…

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Mom’s Last Laugh

i really like this and wanted to share

Morning Story and Dilbert

Consumed by my loss, I didn’t notice the hardness of the pew where I sat. I was at the funeral of my dearest friend — my mother. She finally had lost her long battle with cancer. The hurt was so intense, I found it hard to breathe at times.

Always supportive, mother clapped loudest at my school plays, held a box of tissues while listening to my first heartbreak, comforted me at my father’s death, encouraged me in college, and prayed for me my entire life.

When mother’s illness was diagnosed, my sister had a new baby and my brother had recently married his childhood sweetheart, so it fell on me, the 27-year-old middle child without entanglements, to take care of her. I counted it an honor.

“What now, Lord?” I asked sitting in church. My life stretched out before meas an empty abyss. My brother sat stoically with his…

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Beauty After the ASHES

On August 5th at around 9:30 pm. I got a call that my sister was taken to the hospital with contractions, I was so excited that I was jumping up and down. Well, not really, but wanted to. So my dad, son and I went to Magee Womans Hospital in Pittsburgh and the waiting started. Now I had been getting ready to go to bed and wind down so I was tired. At 4:59 am August 6, Patrick John jr was born. Patrick weighed 8lbs and was 21 in long. He is the most precious little guy and I am so proud to be his aunt.  My new quote now is Beauty after the Ashes. God Bless.Image

Our Miracle is upon us.

I haven’t written in a while and don’t know why. Sometimes I feel like writing and sometimes I don’t. The good news is that my nephew should be born very soon. I can not wait to see him and hold him. In my mind I feel like when I hold him I am going to feel my mom and nannan’s love. I don’t know maybe that is strange, Think about it though, mom passed away September 23, and my sister got pregnant end of October early November. In my mind, I feel that they both had something to do with it. Maybe they asked Jesus for a favor and asked him if he could help us be happy again. I can see them both holding him and sending all their love, kisses and hugs to us, Jesus as well has him in his hand and is taking good care of him as well. My vision I know will come true, He truly does have this baby in his hands and he is feeding him and comforting him and keeping him safe. Patrick Joseph Jr is going to be a well loved little boy, just like his sister and his cousin. They are adored in this family.. When the baby is born  I will post pictures of him so that everyone can see the little miracle that the Lord gave us all. Beauty after the ashes..New life instead of death.

God bless and keep posted. He will be here soon.